They say there is a reason They say time will heal; Neither time or reason Will change the way I feel. Gone are the days We used to share, But in my heart You are always there. The gates of memories Will never close; I will Miss you more than Anybody knows.... Love and miss you everyday Till we meet again Always and Forever >I remember the day I found you. >It was a dark day, for me at least. >I was battling my own mind, even after 1000 years alone I couldn't cope with my feelings. The feeling of inadequacy, of jealousy, guilt. >In that particular day I was feeling out of myself, no longer able to resist my own ego and letting my emotions overcome my own rationality >So much for learning from past mistakes >And so I fled >I knew even back then it was an act of cowardice and selfishness. To leave all the ponies, my friends, my sister.... >It was pitch dark, I made it that way. The nightsky reflecting my own soul is something that will always remind me of the gift I carry. >I was flying over an old forest, miles away from the place I belonged, searching for something that I don't even know >Thats when I found you >Its interesting how fate works. If I hadn't fled that day, in that particular direction at that exact time who knows what would have happened to you >But alas, destiny always has a plan for all of us that I became sure that day > >It was faint, a small cry that could have been mistaken by rustling leaves, but I heard it >In my mind, a typhoon of thoughts was unapologetically lashing against my being >"Its just a lone animal, leave it alone Luna" I thought. >I still went in the aid for that creature >Must have been my innate love for all animals, or perhaps the idea of another being suffering I don't know >It was much to my surprise when I saw the thing that made all of those sounds >Covered in just some cloth, totally naked I saw a pair of pink legs >You were such a small thing, barely visible from where I was standing that night. >Your form was the most curious. Your skin was soft, without any trace of fur nor hair, your stubby arms barely capable of hold my horn, and your eyes blue like the nighsky >To say that I was awestruck by you would be an understatement >I just stood there, holding you with my magic for some time until your crying shaked me out of my trance like state. >You were hurting, cold, and miserable under those damp sheets that were doing a poor job at keeping your body heat. >Whoever left you there was lucky that I found you alone. > >You may not have the same type of magic equestrian creatures have but from the first day I was enchanted by you >I regret it deeply that I never thanked you but you saved me >I was supposed to be your mother, the one who was to protect you from any harm >To look after you and to love you deeply, always and forever >Even when trying my best I was selfish. You were always there for me. >Every dark night, flooded with my guilt and insecurities you were always there for me even as a baby you were still keeping me out of those bad thoughts >For all of that I thank you, I deeply thank you my dear Anonymous for everything you have done for me. > >Remember your teenage years? I do. >You were growing up so fast it was honestly scary for many reasons. >Before I knew you were taller than my sister! >You were such a handsome stallion >Even without being a pony you had this exotic glow in you that drove mares crazy. To much to my dismay >You never settled down though >You prefered a life studying and exploring the many wonders this world still holds secret, for the better of ponykind. >And a life by my side... > >Sometimes I feel sad, as if in my own selfishness I robbed you of a fulfilling life of love and family >You always said that you choosed this and that I had nothing to do with the way you live >Still... that thought never left my mind and probably never will >Did I ever tell you that I knew you saw me cry? >How did I knew you ask? >Well, you always had this spark in your eyes the next day, that look of determination that didn't waver for a second until you made everything alright. >What I did to deserve you.. > >No pony knows, but every passing year, every new wrinkle on your face was to me like bucket of cold ice water waking me up from a dream, reminding me something that I dreaded since the first day I took you in >Nature >I tried everything I could put my whooves on. Magic, spells, artifacts, runes, old magic, BLOOD magic, everything! but nothing got me even a step closer to my goal >I even tried to convince my sister to turn you into an Alicorn, as if it was something that was possible... Not my proudest day I gotta be honest. > >It was a normal day. we were having a picnic under an old apple tree >You were unusually cheerie that day >Everything was perfect. >Until I asked for an apple from the tree >You said you got it, that you would get me the biggest, juiciest apple I have ever tasted in my life. >I shouldn't have humored you >I would have been so easy to just use my magic and pluck any apple I wanted, but you insisted >You were at the very top when you fell >To think that I was distracted looking at the sunset still makes me angry to this day >You fell right on top of the many roots the tree has >A small whimper was all I heard from you and before I could even process what has happened you were already wrapped in my magic and I was running towards the hospital. >The doctors said there wasn't any permanent damage, that your hip would be good as new in just a few weeks and that you only needed to use a walking stick for a while after >Liars >Your body could have healed fine, but you mind didn't >After that day something inside you changed. The flame that burned on your eye waver ever so slightly >It took you longer to do things, your voice cadence was slower, more tired as if life slowed down only for you >You said that it was just the age, that its something that's natural, and perhaps you were right. >It still pained my so much seeing you age so quickly >... >And just like that, before I could even comprehend what was happening, you were gone. >It was an october, just months after your 73 birthday when you left >Its curious but, everytime I see a falling leave I can't stop thinking about you, my dear. >Its not fair.... > > >There's still so much I wanted to tell you. >Since you've been gone.. I want you to know how different life around here is. >Even though I still cherish every memory with all my hear, I still wish you were still here. >Every day I look at your picture, everytime I got to sleep and everytime I wake up. I touch your face through the frame, looking at your sweet smile and I smile back. >It has become a ritual, every day before starting my day full of tasks and things to do. >Most ponies I see don't know, not even my sisters can comprehend the huge hole in my heart, they not know that I see things different form them. >It OK that they don't. Im not bitter nor angry. I am just bereaved, and missing a big part of me. >You were beloved not only by me but by a lot of ponies. >There were even a couple of ponies who gave your names to their own as their middle name. >You probably would have been a husban by now, or even a father if I didn't... > >Your time on this world was not short but it felt so brief in retrospective. There was so much we wanted to do. >On this day, the day of your birthday, I want you to know how much I miss and love you. >You always made this day so special for me with just your beautiful smile and presence >I will try not to cry, but most likely I will. Being your mom brought me so much joy. I will forever miss that. >I am eternaly grateful for the honor of knowing you and the pleasure of raising you, seeing you grow and become the stallion I am so proud of >I'll love you forever, till the end of times > >With eternal love, your mom, >Lulu.