Silver Platter stood still in the shower. Thinking about what happened in Canterlot. She has beaten that mugger within an inch of his life. Which had horrified her mistress Rarity. That, along with how panicked she got when the cutie mark crusaders had snuck out, has led her mistress trying to convince Silver Platter that she needs to get help. It was like one moment she was a regular pony, the next she was something else. All this self reflecting brought her back to when she was still adjusting to being a pony, the day she had earned her cutie mark.

It was only around a month after she had become the unicorn known as Silver Platter. Rarity had been letting her stay at the boutique. Currently she was looking for a job. She was in the exact same shower, thinking to herself as she still struggled a little with cleaning herself with hooves. She had still yet to get the hang of magic. She began to think to herself:

●”Damn Twilight. I'm stuck in this pastel hellhole and it's all her fault.”●
∆”I mean it's not all bad. My fur feels soft and comfy. Everypony is nice. Life is quaint, cozy, and simple. And Twilight didn't really intend for this to happen.”∆
●”What am I thinking? It's everyBODY. And I definitely shouldn't forgive that bitch. She ruined my life.”●
∆”Even though I've lost my previous life, this new one isn't so bad. I kinda like it.”∆
●”No! I shouldn't be thinking that! My whole life is gone! I shouldn't be liking this new life I've been forced into!”●
∆”And do what? Just be miserable all the time? This makes me happy and I should enjoy that it does.”∆
●”But what if I lose myself? I feel like I'm becoming more and more like a pony mentally. What if I become nothing more than a shell of myself? Not a single bit of humanity remaining.”●
∆”What am I thinking? Such a thing is ridiculous. Besides, even if I'm slowly losing my humanity, perhaps it's not a bad thing. What use does acting like a human have in a world of ponies? It's nothing more than a reminder that brings forth pain.”∆
●”But I don't want to lose my humanity. Because what would I become without it?”●

Her thoughts felt as if they were two sides of an argument rather than her actual thoughts. As if her pony brain is arguing with what remains of humanity. Letting out a sigh, Silver Platter proceeds to rinse off and exit the shower. Drying off and looking in the mirror. Topaz yellow eyes glinting in the light and typically curly blue mane wet and straight, she slowly turns her body sideways. Looking at the reflection of her blank flank in the mirror. Causing her to think once more:

∆”I wonder what my cutie mark will be?”∆
●”Would gaining it cause me to lose what remains of my humanity?”●
∆●”Will I be satisfied with what it ends up being?”●∆

She shakes her head, trying to clear her mind. Deciding to go take a walk. Brushing her mane and grabbing the bag of bits she had acquired through the occasional odd-job she did, she exited the building. The sun shining brightly down on her coat. Evaporating what water from her shower remained on it. She slowly meandered through the streets. Awkwardly waving back at any pony who greeted her.

Eventually she ended up wandering into the market place. Admiring the many wares that the countless stalls sold. Her train of thought was interrupted by a loud cracking noise. Her ears swivel to the source of the noise as she turns to look. Seeing Applejack standing over a tipped over cart with a broken off wheel.

“Gosh darn it! Of all da times ma cart coulda broke, it happens right now!” She shouts in annoyance. Silver Platter approaches the apple loving mare slowly. “Need any help with that?” The mauve unicorn asks. Gathering up the fallen apples for the earth pony.

“Thanks Silver Platta!” The farmer of apples responds. The non-silver colored mare handing AJ the red fruits. Pushing the cart back up and placing the lost fruits back in. Silver Platter has to admit, she did feel very nice helping Applejack clean up the spilled apples. “No problem, Applejack. I'm happy to help.”

After some small talk with Applejack, she heads to sugarcube corner. In the mood for something sweet as a snack. Slowly she enters the shop. Perhaps she should get something for Spike and Rarity, she thinks to herself. But before she could continue with that thought, a certain pink party pony bounces up to her.

“Heya Silver Platter!~ I haven't seen you in like forever! Last time we talked, you were still using your old name. Speaking of, why did you choose the name Silver Platter? You're neither silver nor own a platter. Speaking of platters, I've been thinking about making platters of assorted cookies for the parties I host. The cakes agree that it seems like a good idea, but I want some more ponies’ opinions on it. What do you think?” The cotton candy menace says before the unfortunate unicorn could get the chance to say even a single word.

“W-well for why I chose that name, I'm not actually quite sure myself. It just felt right.” She then sighs and takes a deep breath. “As for the cookie platter idea, I think it could be fun.” She then fidgets with her blue curly mane for a second, thinking about what she'd like to order. “Anyway, I'd like to order six cupcakes. Planning on giving some to Spike and Rarity.”

“On it! Will be back in a jiffy!” Pinkie pie says, leaving within the blink of an eye. A cloud of dust being left behind in the mare’s place. While Pinkie is busy baking, Mrs Cake brings a trio of milkshakes to three fillies, the cutie mark crusaders. But part way through her journey to the table, she trips and spills the sugary liquids. The milkshakes covering the floor.

Remembering the nice feeling she felt when she had helped Applejack, Silver Platter decided to spring into action. “Please, allow me to clean it. You're such a busy mare after all.” The blue mare smiles at her in response. “Thank you dear. That would be very appreciated!”

Silver Platter gets to cleaning the sugary puddle. Using a rag to mop it up. Humming happily to herself. “Hey Miss Silver, how come you don't have a cutie mark? I've never seen an adult without a cutie mark.” Sweetie Belle, unicorn member of the cutie mark crusaders and sister of Rarity, asks.

Silver Platter stiffens up in response. “Well y-you see, I'm n-not exactly a regular pony… I don't really like talking about it… If you really need to know, please ask your sister…” She says with a frown as she finishes up cleaning. “Okay Miss Silver!” The white filly says happily. Seemingly oblivious to the tension emanating from the older mare. The trio of fillies running off with their milkshakes once Mrs Cake brings out the replacement ones.

“Thank you again dear.” The blue baker says. She smiles at the bakery owner in response. “It's really no problem. I'm happy to help.” Silver Platter says with a smile. The fuzzy feeling returns, although dimmed thanks to a certain filly reminding her of her past.

Then the pink mare finally returns with a box of cupcakes. Handing it to her. “How much do I owe you?” Silver Platter asks, sifting through her bag of bits. “It's on the house dear. Consider it a thanks for your help.” Says Mrs Cake with a big smile. “Thank you, Mrs Cake.” Silver Platter responds with a bow. Then she takes the cupcakes and begins to head out.

Before she can leave, the ex rock farmer blocks her way. Giving Silver Platter a flyer to a hearts and hooves party she's planning. Silver Platter takes the flyer and leaves. The reminder of the upcoming holiday causing the mare to think:

∆”Who should I bring to the party as a date?”∆
●”What am I thinking!? I shouldn't be attracted to ponies!”●
∆”But I'm a pony myself, not a human. Not anymore. And there are so many cute mares and handsome stallions.~”∆
●”No! Bad thoughts! Stop!”●
∆”Who am I kidding? I can't deny my desires.~”∆
●”No matter how hard I try….”●

Eventually she arrives back at the boutique. Entering, she sees there's currently no one around asides from the crusaders. Who are currently talking amongst themselves. “Hey, have you seen Rarity and Spike? I wanted to eat these cupcakes with them and hang.” She asks the trio. “We haven't seen them either. My sister and Spike are probably still busy looking for gems.” Says Sweetie Belle. As if on cue, the two of them enter, both carrying a large pile of gems.

“Oh! Hello darlings! What are you all doing together?” Rarity asks. “Well I actually just entered a minute ago looking for you two. I brought some cupcakes.” Silver Platter responds, opening up the package of cupcakes. “And we were wondering why Miss Silver doesn't have a cutie mark and were going to ask you about it!” Said Rarity's sister. “And why me?” The indigo maned unicorn asks. “Cause when we asked Silver Platter, she said she doesn't like to talk about it, and that if we really want to know, to ask you.” Pipes up Scootaloo.

“Well that's a bit of a long story. I'll tell you three later. First me and Spikey need to put away these glorious gems.~ And also spend some quality time with our friend Silver Platter.” She turns to Silver Platter. “Feel free to place the cupcakes in the kitchen. We'll be with you in a minute darling.”

Silver Platter nods in response. But before she could reach the kitchen, a loud crashing noise echoes through the boutique. Rarity having tripped on Spike’s tail. Causing both of them to drop the gems they're carrying. As if on instinct, she approaches the mess. Her horn started to glow. In a complete trance as she carries the mess of gems in an aura of bright pink. Neatly putting away all the gems. A bright light emanating from her flanks as she does so.

By the time she snaps out of it, the mess is gone and there's a cutie mark on her flanks. A silver platter with a golden six pointed star on it. “Wow Miss Silver! Dat’s a nice cutie mark!” Shouts Applebloom. Startling the mauve mare a little. Slowly she turns to look at her flank. “Does this mean my destiny is to be a maid?.... I'm surprisingly okay with that.” Silver Platter says with a smile. “Now, who wants a cupcake?~”

Silver Platter chuckled to herself as she finished reminiscing on the day she got her cutie mark. That was a nice day. She then went to thinking about her two recent freak outs. First thinking about when the crusaders snuck out.

Her heart felt like it was beating a million times a minute. Panic flooding her mind. Her thoughts a jumbled mess:

∆”Stay calm. Don't freak out. They couldn't have gotten that far.”∆
●”But what if they got hurt!? What if I can't find them!? Mistress Rarity will never forgive me! She'll hate me forever!”●
∆”Calm down! Think logically! There's no way that's gonna happen. Such a scenario is very unlikely.”∆
●”But it could! What if it does!? I must find them at any cost!”●

Before she knew it, she was already tearing her way across town in a manic panic attack. Her heart feeling like it's going to burst out of her chest.

With a sigh, she shakes her head and then thinks about the mugger incident. The stallion was standing in front of them, blocking her and Rarity's way. His blade pointed at them. She could've easily disarmed and restrained him. But in her mind, there was a simmering rage:

●”How dare he! Trying to harm our generous and lovely mistress! He will pay!”●
∆”I shouldn't be too cruel to him though. He's just a common crook, not a super powerful threat to all of Equestria.”∆
●”No! He's a crook. I shouldn't show a crook any mercy. He wishes to harm our mistress and steal our stuff. I'm going to make him pay!”●

With a fit of pure fury, she pulverized the unfortunate stallion. Slamming him into as many things as possible. But her fury turned to regret and shame as Rarity looked at her with horror.

Silver Platter exited the shower with tears in her eyes. Saddened as she remembers how she had terrified her mistress and friend by brutalizing that mugger. As she gets dried off and dressed, she sighs. Slowly making her way down stairs, where she's greeted by Rarity. “Morning mistress Rarity! I've been thinking about what you said, and you're right. I need help. I'm afraid if I don't, I may end up hurting you or someone else I care about. And I don't want that.” She then gives the white unicorn a big hug.

The end.