copied from :https://desuarchive.org/mlp/thread/17726279/#q17744902
original author is Anon
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>I hate Rainbow Dash
>I hate how she's still playing second fiddle to that lame Princess and not on the Wonderbolts
>I hate how I didn't make the preliminaries for the Equestrian Games
>I hate how I gave up on competitive flying
>I hate how I got this lousy job waiting tables
>I hate this sleazy bar
>I hate Fiona for being sick that one night
>I hate my boss for throwing me on stage and telling me to 'wing it'
>I hate how bright the spotlight was
>I hate how impressed everyone was when they heard me sing
>I hate how my boss insisted I sung at his larger club
>I hate how he doubled my pay and I couldn't say no
>I hate how I've spent more time in front of a mirror these last few months than I have my whole natural life
>I hate how good I look in some of these show dresses
>I hate how great I felt when the boss said I looked 'fabulous'
>I hate how that word is a compliment now
>I hate how much my heart pounds right before I step through the curtain
>I hate how amazing I look in the spotlight
>I hate how enraptured the audience becomes as my voice crescendos
>I hate how I've been approached by more than one big business guy looking to get me to work for them
>I hate how much I love this scene, despite it being against everything I stood for years ago
>I hate that griffins and ponies alike actually want to be around me
>I hate that I don't mind how much I changed
>I hate that I can admit its for the better
>I hate how everyone says they envy how talented I am
>But most of all?
>I hate that I can't enjoy this for all its worth, because she's not there to share it with

>I miss you....I wish you'd wander into my show someday and see how much I've changed
>I hate that you may not recognize me...