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Suicidal Anon in Equestria

By maresloveme
Created: 2025-07-26 10:07:00
Expiry: Never

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    >You are Anon
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    >It's around 2:00 Am
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    >Looking outside the window you can see a slight breeze pushing and pulling the apple trees as a full moon shines bright.
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    >You feel as empty as ever.
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    >You remember your life back home. It wasn't the best, but you know it wasn't worth throwing away to come here.
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    >Spending countless hours lying awake. Thinking of how much better it would be to live in a world full of magic.
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    >And of course friendship.
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    >Something you couldn't obtain on Earth.
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    >It's still unclear how you even got to Equestria. One minute at home, the next, you're in a land full of colorful pones.
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    >The details are fuzzy, yet you remember doing something specific before you got here.
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    >It doesn't matter now. Nothing really does.
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    >Who would have guessed your isolated lifestyle and lack of friends would land you in the same position you were on earth.
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    >When they first saw you. Most were scared. Terrified even. Thinking you were some kind of monster.
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    >Even after being explained, most ponies still hide and whisper to each other at the sight of you.
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    >Nobody looks you in the eye.
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    >They all give blunt answers when you try to start a conversation. They just want you to go away.
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    >You couldn't make friends even if you wanted to.
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    >Somehow, you had to find a way to support yourself. So after some job searching, the apple family reluctantly offered a job working on the farm.
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    >They even offered a guest bedroom for you to stay in.
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    >It was kind. But they still had the same behavior and demeanor to you. Just like the other ponies.
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    >Cold. And distant.
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    >This place wasn't a dream come true. As cheesy as it sounded. It was a nightmare.
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    >And it was time to stop it.
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    >You've been working on this farm for 3 months now. Mostly simple stuff. "take this here, put that there." That kind of thing.
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    >But the apple family never really acknowledged you as a being.
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    >Blank stares and expressions.
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    >You once caught them together sharing a laugh in the kitchen.
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    >You thought maybe you could chime in.
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    "Ha, whats so funny?"
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    >Immediately the room was hushed to silence.
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    >Maybe a cough or two.
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    >"Oh, heheh it's nothin anon. Just a uh.. pony joke, ah don't think you'd get it." Applejack said, breaking the silence.
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    >Applejack was the only member of the family that talked to you. Even if it was just small talk.
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    >She even listened to things you said. And contributed her thoughts to them.
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    >But at the same time she always had a worried expression on her face when she talked to you.
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    >It made anything she said to you feel hollow. Like she was only talking because she had to.
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    >As the days went by. The lack of social interaction started to eat away at any optimism you had.
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    >You were just a machine.
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    >Preforming tasks day by day for the apple family.
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    >A simple work mule.
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    >But hell, even mules had friends here!
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    >2:25 AM
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    >It's time to make this all end. Make all this pain just stop.
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    >You had taken a rope from the barn while no one was looking yesterday. You hid it under your bed.
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    >Slowly you shift your gaze from the window. To the bed. Crouching down you grab the rope coil.
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    >You tie one end into a noose.
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    >It wasn't difficult. After all you had plenty of time to practice, being alone most of the time.
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    >The guest room has wooden beam that goes across the length of the ceiling.
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    >There was even space between the beam and the ceiling itself.
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    >You climb on top of the bed to reach it.
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    >It was almost too easy securing the rope there.
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    >After that is finished, you go to climb back down.
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    >You loose your footing and fall to the floor. Landing with a very loud and audible THUD.
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    "fuck"
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    >You lay on the floor for a bit. Soaking in the pain.
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    >'I hope nobody heard that' you think to yourself. Slowly you start to get up.
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    >You would have to work a little quicker now. If somebody did hear that, they were certain to come and investigate.
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    >You had intended to write a note. But decided against it. It's not like anyone would read it anyway.
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    >You grab a chair sitting in the corner of the room and drag it under the rope.
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    >Climbing on top, you take the noose and slide it over your head.
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    >You stand there. Atop a chair with a rope around your neck. Facing the window. The moon is beautiful.
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    >You're entranced by it. A small smile forming across your face.
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    >A tear rolls down your cheek.
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    >you kick the chair out from under you. Instantly you feel the rope tighten around your neck.
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    >You try your best to be still and let death take you without a fight.
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    >The door opens.
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    >A tired voice begins to speak "Anon, did you hear a-"
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    >Her eyes widen.
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    >"ANON!"
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    >She quickly climbs up and unties the rope with her teeth in a matter of seconds.
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    >You fall to the ground.
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    >Feeling the blood shift around your head. Dizzy and gasping for air.
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    >Applejack runs to your side.
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    >"ANON! What in all Equestria were you doing?!"
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    >You turn to Applejack. Your vision slowly becoming clearer.
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    >Head still swimming. You attempt to say something.
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    "a..applejack? why...what...what are you doing here?"
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    >"Whats wrong with you anon?! You couldof' died!"
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    >Regaining your senses. You look at her. She was genuinely terrified.
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    >It was strange. It was probably the first time seeing any kind of reaction from anybody.
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    "That was kind of the point"
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    >Head still throbbing you look to the floor. Then back to applejack.
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    >Her eyes are darting around the room.
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    >"But, why would you?! How could?! Ah Don't..!?"
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    >Tears start to roll down her face.
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    >Suddenly, she wraps her front hooves around you. Pulling you in. Fully embracing you. Squeezing tight.
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    >"No no no no no"
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    >She says over and over in a sobbing, shaking voice.
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    >"No anon. Just...No...ah... ahm so sorry"
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    >Her voice now turned to whisper.
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    >You sit there now. Literally dazed and confused.
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    >What was all this? Did she really care? Were you just too dumb too see it?
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    >None of this made sense.
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    >And yet.
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    >You found yourself in tears aswell.
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    >Your arms find themselves wrapping around the scared and sobbing pony.
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    >And for a while you both sit there with each other.
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    >The moonlight shining through on top of you both, in the dark room.
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    >You attempt to ease Applejack's sobbing
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    "Don't be sorry. You didn't do anything wrong."
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    >She hugs you tighter.
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    >"Ah knew I shoulda s-said somethin"
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    "what?"
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    >She takes a deep breath
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    >"Anon, all this time. Ah have been worried about you. You just seem so..."
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    >She pauses. Still trying to compose herself.
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    >"Ah wanted to say something sooner. But the rest of the family said ah'd be wasting my time. That you weren't worth it"
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    >"This is my fault."
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    "Applejack I-"
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    >"Anon, please just know that we care about you! Or at the very least ah do! We can make this work! Together."
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    >She begins to sob again.
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    >"Just promise me you'll never do that again."
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    >Hearing her words. Changed something inside you. It was like there was reason and order in the world again.
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    "Ok, Applejack."
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    >She rests her head on your shoulder.
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    >You look outside the window at the trees... and at the glowing moon.
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    >And. At that moment. For the first time in ages.
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    >You could feel something.
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    End.

Suicidal Anon in Equestria

by maresloveme