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oh celestia, its one of those days.

 

it always came out of nowhere and bogged green down to the point she could barely move. no thoughts, just thick black muck with traces of pure negativity. all because of a stupid text message, or a lack thereof. that night she was going on a date with that cute mare who looks like rainbow dash, or it might not even happen at this rate. why else would she not text goodnight? all because of a stupid text message, or a lack thereof...

 

11:46... 1:02... 1:57... 3:30... 4:23... 6:25...

 

welp, no text from bowrain, gotta trust her at this point. green pops open the window. whoof, fall's here alright. time to bust out the thick hoodies. probably wouldve wore it regardless, cover up the soft spots. pull on 4 socks, look in the mirror.

 

so that's what 18 hours of bedhead looks like.

 

alright, get the lead out. let's go. bow thinks youre cute with your hood up anyways

 

it was a good date like any other. made each other laugh, touched on some deep stuff, got to know a little more about each other, but couldnt go on through the night because bowrain had work early on sunday. oy vey, i know. so the two were flying back to her place with green escorting her by the hoof

 

"i went to snowy's on opening night with epiphany cuz she always tells me about it" bowrain told her story

 

"thats cool, how was it?" green answered almost blankly. bow knew something was off but could tell she was still trying to have fun with it

 

"it was fun, now that its cold out it fits the vibe really good. epip said its a lot like what they had in snowpitt"

 

"id go with you mares, to snowpitt too if we do a road trip"

 

"she did something that made me kind of mad though, i might go talk to her about it later"

 

there was a palpable shift in the air between them. green's pupils shrunk a bit and her grip on bow's hoof loosened

 

"what did she do?" green naturally asked,

 

"oh so we were hanging out with a few other snowponies and i dunno she kept on negging me for wearing my bright winter clothes. you know they dress very tribal-like"

 

"mm-hmm"

 

"it was condescending, like she was saying 'look at this city slicker' yaknow? and like weve known each other for years and thats how you introduce me to your snowpony friends? come on"

 

"yeah you tell her that" green responded. it was uncharacteristic for her. on serious matters she was always the first to diffuse, only joking about escalating for the fun of it,

 

"ill prolly go talk to her after you drop me off." bowrain said. green subtly slipped her hoof out and focused on flying forward, "...i mean you can still come with us next time-"

 

"mmhmm." green said matter of factly. they were almost there, and green could get away from the ticking time bomb.

 

--

 

"thanks for flying me home green" bowrain said, the two mares standing a hoof's length apart,

 

"yeah, no problem. well... ill see you next time. bye" green said in that same almost blank voice with a very forced half smile. the current fright was running deep underneath. and then she turned to fly away. no hug, no smooch, not even a mlem. bowrain was so confused that her emotions were stirred in a tornado

 

"green..." she forced out quietly. green turned around, able to pick up on her voice from a mile away,

 

"what?" green responded. bowrain squeezed her eyes and a sob echoed through the streets.

 

DEFCON 5 ALERT: CRYING MAREFRIEND IN CLOSE PROXIMITY

 

"WHY were you so cold and distant!? do you not like me anymore?? WHAT DID I DO!?!?" bowrain sobbed out. green was frozen, this was the last and the worst outcome she expected, and had 0 idea on where to even start for fixing this,

 

"u... you... you said you were mad so i was kind of, keeping my distance" green hastily put together, instinctively tugging on one of her socks. she'll take any ideas on how to dig her budding relationship out of this hole.

 

surprisingly though, bowrain pulled herself together enough to talk normally, her magenta eyes still glassy,

 

"what do you mean?" she fired back,

 

"you know, like... when ponies get mad about something they start like, screaming at somepony else about it, even if it wasn't my fault or anypony's, calling me 'nigger faggot' and all that. i mean, id take that over 'NF'..." green trailed off. bowrain couldnt believe what she was hearing. the blumare walked right up face to face. green shuffled a hoof back, braced for impact, "green...

 

-WHY WOULD I EVER SAY THAT TO YOU!?" she yelled in a whirlwind of emotions, including but not limited to angry confusion at greens behavior, being insulted by green thinking she would even think of doing that, and above all else an empathetic sadness for what would even lead her down a train of thought like that. whatever it was, it cut straight through to greens snowpity.

 

green was still frozen, but her body was relaxing more second by second. behind her widening pupils flashed all of those memories, and a whiff of the notion that that's all behind her. bowrain could see the gears turning too and backed off, realizing she did exactly what green was so scared of,

 

"bowie, i don't know why i thought that either, i just, i didn't know what to do when you started crying" bowrain finally gave her some distance,

 

"im sorry greenie i know you were scared of me screaming at you but it was-"

 

"-no. i needed to hear that."

 

"do you want me to fly home with you?"

 

"dont worry about it, i obviously got a lot to think over"

 

bow held greens back hoof as she turned around,

 

"come on, i got all night." bowrain said. a weary quarter smile spread on greens face with tired eyes, but was still more genuine than any of the others from tonight. the two took flight in their side by side formation, bow staying close enough for comfort but letting green have her space,

 

"you caught me in a mood today too." green opened up,

 

"how so?"

 

"idk... sometimes i just get really down, like *really* down but i dont cry or anything so its not like being depressed. and you know im sure you get sad and just stay in bed all day too, dont text anypony" green explained,

 

"mmhmm" bowrain listened,

 

"and like sometimes its like 'this is no bueno i gotta fix it' but then like next day ill be completely fine and then if i did go get help id be like 'well that was a waste of time'. ive learned to just kind of ride it out, even if it does have unfortunate timing"

 

"you know why that happens?" bowrain asked. green looked up at her with full doe eyes waiting for the answer. bow gushed at the sight. "oh no, im asking you"

 

"oh... i have no idea it just happens. ive noticed itll sometimes be after im really really happy or really really mad but i didnt do anything lately"

 

"what about at basketball?"

 

"no, nothing out of the ordinary happened on thursday" green stated, "as stupid as it sounds thats why i got that plushie on my bed, found him in a bargain bin-"

 

"whats his name?"

 

"dunno yet."

 

"how long you had him?"

 

"couple years now, since last year of college"

 

"qt" bowrain reacted with a boop. in the split second green looked over, bow could see the light behind her green eyes shining past whatever was clouding her snowpity.

 

just in time for the two pegasi to reach green's still open bedroom window and mark the end of this date's encore,

 

"bow... you sure you can't stay here?" green asked, trying not to sound begging. bowrain solemnly shook her head,

 

"i'll be back right after my shift, ok grenmare?" bow kindly reminded. as she held the window open the blue mare flew a tad towards green, just enough to break the plane of intimacy, and waited.

 

greens eyes shuffled for a sec, and then finally she leaned foreward and gave her marefriend a nice smooch on the lips. her blue face rushed with pink as bowrain slipped her hooves under green's hood and around her neck, pulling the black poner in a tight hug.

 

for a solid minute the two hovered in each others hugs, until they finally let each other go and held themselves at hoofs length,

 

"get some rest greenie, you look like you need it" bowrain said. green chuckled a tad, considering how her day was,

 

"ok bowie, ill see you tomorrow" she farewelled with another kiss, followed by another quick hug,

 

"go inside, i got the window" bow nodded towards greens messy nest of a bed. green calmly glided through and straight onto the top of her mattress, sliding herself under the covers in record time,

 

"goodnight bowie" greens muffled voice sounded from the head,

 

"goodnight greenie" bowrain soothed back, shut her window. and headed for home. that mare was too cute to be sleeping alone.