GREEN   128    2616   14.28 KB

/emo/ Deep suffering, chp 1

By NHanon
Created: 23rd October 2020 03:39:46 PM
/emo/ Deep Rest dark

  1. >Repeated beeping awakens you.
  2. >Letting out a groan, you quickly shut off the alarm clock.
  3. >Taking a breath, you sit up and stretch slowly.
  4. >Just another long day in store.
  5. >You are Deep Rest, nurse extraordinaire!
  6. >Technically a doctor, but working as a nurse a little less stressful and you get to bond with patients more.
  7. >Rising out of your bed, you look around your apartment.
  8. >It’s a little cramped, but you have plenty of room for what little you what have.
  9. >Heading to the bathroom, you go through the usual routine of bathing and brushing.
  10. >Always a pain, but you try to look your best despite your colors of your coat and mane.
  11. >Won’t be long now till your shift starts, then the real day begins.
  12. >Stepping into the kitchen, you try to psych yourself up.
  13. >It’s always difficult though.
  14. >Especially with the effects of last nights drinking still lingering.
  15. >Thankfully, you didn’t overdo it.
  16. >Still doesn’t help the dull pain in your head.
  17. >You take out a box of cereal and a bowl.
  18. >You should really get around to making something a little better than glorified cardboard.
  19. >Reading the side of the box it says ‘Fills you with energy to get you through the day!’
  20. “What a crock of shit, gotta sell to the masses somehow.”
  21. >Sitting down at the table, you open up a book and read while you eat.
  22. >It’s nothing special, just an issue of this years medical journal.
  23. >In truth, you already know most of this stuff like the back of your hoof.
  24. >Doesn’t hurt to get a refresher.
  25. >Before long, you finish up and start to prep to head to work.
  26. >Grabbing your saddle bags, keys, and putting on your wristband, you stop to give yourself a pep talk.
  27. “Alright Rest, just gotta put on your best face. Remember! Do it for the patients, do it for them.”
  28. >If anypony were to hear you now, likely your neighbors, they’d probably think your crazy.
  29. >Then again, they already hear you talk to yourself.
  30.  
  31. >Especially when you drink.
  32. >Taking one final breath, you leave your apartment to the early morning.
  33. >The sun is slowly rising, and the air is still crisp.
  34. >Despite how everything feels so bright and lively.
  35. >It always seems like a thin veil covers it all.
  36. >Pushing aside those thoughts, you trot down the road, waving to the few ponies up and about this morning.
  37. >Slowly you approach your work, Ponyville General.
  38. >The pale yellow walls and brown shingled roof give off a rustic feel.
  39. >It feels welcoming and makes the patients feel at ease.
  40. >As you reach the entrance, you stop and close your eyes, giving yourself one final push.
  41. >Do it for them, never forget, do it for them.
  42. >Opening your eyes again, you head inside.
  43. >Passing by both patients and staff alike, you greet them with a smile.
  44. >This place is like a maze at times, but you could navigate it blind folded.
  45. >Entering the locker room, you see the other nurses getting ready.
  46. >One in particular catches your attention
  47. >Your friend Bedside Manner, though she prefers that you call her Betty.
  48. >Her turquoise coat and red mane make her stand out a fair bit.
  49. >But at least that makes her easy to pick out.
  50. >Going through your locker, she grabs your attention.
  51. >”Morning Rest, how was your weekend?”
  52. >Short, tiring, and you drank too much.
  53. >She doesn’t need to know that.
  54. “Morning Betty. It went pretty good, did some reading. How about you?”
  55. >She smiles.
  56. >”Mine was boring, ready for another exciting day of saving ponies from a runny nose?”
  57. >You give her a smirk, and reply with your own sarcasm.
  58. “Of course, and I can’t wait to take the temperature of each stallion who asks if they have a fever.”
  59. >You share a giggle between the two of you.
  60. >While you don’t see each other much outside of work, it’s nice to have some pony to talk to.
  61. >She rolls her eyes.
  62.  
  63. >”Yeah, that never gets old.”
  64. “At least it’s all worth it. Can never be too careful after all.”
  65. >While she doesn’t share your conviction, no pony does, she does nod.
  66. >”That’s true. Well, I’ll see you later then.”
  67. “See you later Betty.”
  68. >Waving her off, you finish getting ready.
  69. >As you reach the group, you can see the usual nurses gathered around.
  70. >Time to get your assignments and updates on what happened this weekend.
  71. >The head nurse goes through her usual motions of reminding every nurse of their duties.
  72. >Part of you wish she didn’t, but sometimes the others need a reminder.
  73. >You listen to the important bits and wait for her to give your patients.
  74. >”Alright Deep, here you are.”
  75. >You quickly scan the names, but two in particular catch your eye.
  76. >Cart Wheel and Sky Light.
  77. >You’ve known Cart, well Carl, since you were a filly.
  78. >As for Sky, you remember him being born here.
  79. >You feel a little joy and a bit of concern enter your heart.
  80. >Giving the paper one final look, you start to make your rounds.
  81. >Mostly talking with patients, replacing equipment, and checking vitals.
  82. >But you get through it.
  83. >Carl and Sky are a bit high on your priority list.
  84. >Namely because Carl has been here for weeks, and Sky was brought in over the weekend.
  85. >Fortunately, first on the list is Sky.
  86. >Entering the room, you see Sky laying in bed under the covers with his mother sitting bedside.
  87. >High Light is her name, and she looks awful.
  88. >Not that you blame her, Sky is a regular here.
  89. >The poor colt was born premature and thus has had a whole host of problems.
  90. >Upon seeing you, he sits up a little fast before coughing.
  91. >His mother reaches him quickly.
  92. >>”Slow down Sky, not too fast, remember what the doctor said.”
  93. >He nods and lays back, but with a eager look on his face.
  94. “How’s my favorite colt?”
  95. >He gives you a big smile.
  96.  
  97. >”Hi Rest, I’m happy to see you again.”
  98. >You nod and feel a swell of happiness.
  99. “I’m happy to see you as well. How about we chat while I do my work?”
  100. >Picking up the chart, you see why he is here.
  101. >Pneumonia.
  102. >A small bit of panic hits you, but you have learned to hide that from others.
  103. >Just continue smiling Rest, he is here now and will get through this.
  104. >He always pulls through, just like the last several times he was here.
  105. >As you perform your duties, you both start to talk.
  106. >”Mhm, mom reminds me that you have stuff to do.” He looks to her with a smile and continues on. “But your my favorite nurse.”
  107. >High Light looks a little happier seeing her son so lively.
  108. >You let out a small giggle.
  109. “Thank you light. How has school been?”
  110. >”It’s going great, I’ve just learned about the uni-uni-”
  111. >>”Unification.” Says Mrs. Light.
  112. >”Unification of the three tribes.” He says with a bright smile.
  113. >This colt is just melting your heart.
  114. >You write down a few more numbers, all good so far.
  115. “Sounds cool Sky, what’s your favorite part?”
  116. >He coughs again and his mother gently strokes his foreleg.
  117. >”When fire of friendship blasted away the windigos!”
  118. >He gestures and makes the noise of an explosion.
  119. >If you get diabetes from him, you don’t care.
  120. “That’s my favorite part as well.”
  121. >You make sure he doesn’t need anything else replaced.
  122. >”Mom got me a new train too!”
  123. >Taking a quick glance, you see she looking at him with tired eyes.
  124. >Still full of love, but so much pain.
  125. “Awesome, you’ve got to show me sometime, did you thank your mom?”
  126. >Turning back to him, you see he takes a moment, trying not to cough.
  127. >”Mhm, I was super happy and couldn’t stop thanking her.”
  128. >She lets out a small laugh.
  129. >>”You sure did, now don’t get too excited Sky.”
  130. >He looks to her and frowns.
  131. >”I won’t, you and the doctor keep reminding me.”
  132.  
  133. “Well they are right to do that. You have to remember you’re a little sick right now.”
  134. >”I know, I can’t wait to get better.”
  135. >You share his enthusiasm.
  136. >Sadly, you have to go on with your rounds.
  137. “You will Sky, that will take time, but I got to go now. Be good for your mom, okay?”
  138. >He nods a little and his mother mouths a thank you.
  139. >You continue to make your way about the floor checking on the various patients.
  140. >The majority of them will make a full recovery and some are being released today.
  141. >That doesn’t stop the dread that creeps within.
  142. >Finishing up, you head to the cafeteria, and go grab lunch.
  143. >You’d pack your own, but you procrastinate.
  144. >Besides, what they serve here is better than what you make at home.
  145. >Grabbing a salad, you find your usual spot.
  146. >Slowly you start to eat, but eventually you just pick at it.
  147. >’What if Light dies?’
  148. >You know that you and the staff will do everything in your power to prevent it.
  149. >But that still doesn’t stop the thought.
  150. >’That doesn’t change things.’
  151. >He’s so young.
  152. >Suddenly, Betty joins you and snaps you out of it.
  153. ”Saved you a seat.”
  154. >She nods and starts to gossip.
  155. >”You didn’t hear it from me, but I heard that Doctor Monitor and Gentle Care are seeing one another.”
  156. >In truth, you really don’t care for gossip.
  157. “Really?”
  158. >You try to stay with the conversation, but you can’t stop worrying.
  159. >”-They work together though.”
  160. >Barely catching the end of it, you start to let your attention drift.
  161. “Uh-huh.”
  162. >She stops talking.
  163. >And you look back up, you can see her trying to read you.
  164. “What?”
  165. >”You’re thinking about the patients again, aren’t you?”
  166. >You’re trying to ignore that thought still, but you guess you can’t hide it that well.
  167. “Is it that obvious?”
  168. >She nods, and gives you look of understanding.
  169. >”It’s okay, I know you’re passionate about them.”
  170. “Yeah, hard to ignore it.”
  171.  
  172. >She reaches out and touches your hoof.
  173. >”Just remember, you can’t let it get to you. Never forget what we learned in medical school.”
  174. >Never get too attached, something you always failed at.
  175. >It helps alleviate the worry a little.
  176. “Yeah, I know.”
  177. >She nods before looking over to the clock.
  178. >”Alright, I’m going to finish up my shift. Good luck with yours.”
  179. >If only it was that easy.
  180. “Yeah, good luck to you as well.”
  181. >After lunch, you go about your duties.
  182. >Just like before, you find that the patients are doing just fine.
  183. >That’s when you come to your last stop.
  184. >Carl’s room.
  185. >Entering, you see the elderly stallion.
  186. >A faded brown coat, white mane, and icy blue eyes that look back at you.
  187. >You give him a smile.
  188. “Hello Carl, how are you feeling today?”
  189. >He slowly smiles and clears his throat.
  190. >”Hello Ms. Rest, I’m feeling fine, same as usual.”
  191. >You pick up his chart, everything reads stable, but you can’t ignore the fear inside of you.
  192. >He has been here a while after his granddaughter brought him in.
  193. >Sadly, he has been having shortness of breath and it culminated in him fainting.
  194. >Thankfully, she visits daily.
  195. “That’s good to hear, I’m certain you’ll be out of here in no time.”
  196. >Nodding he continues.
  197. >”So did I ever tell you about when I first moved here to Ponyville?”
  198. >You’ve heard him tell you this story many times, but you don’t mind.
  199. “No I haven’t Carl, I’m happy to listen.”
  200. >As you check the usual, he starts.
  201. >”So I had just moved out of my family’s farm, and had all my stuff in a cart.” He chuckles. “I had wanted to experience the life outside of the farm, and had heard of a new town.”
  202. >He takes a moment and licks his lips.
  203. >”It was a nightmare to travel those roads back then, I pushed on. When I finally got here, I had no bits in my pouch or a place to stay. I wasn’t the brightest, but I was determined.”
  204.  
  205. >You nod along, changing his IV.
  206. >”Coincidentally I met my wife then, her family let me stay at their home. Her father was worried I was there to take his daughter.” He gets a twinkle in his eyes. “Of course I wasn’t, but that stop me later.”
  207. >Finishing up, you turn to hear the rest of his story.
  208. >He shakes his head slightly.
  209. >”Sorry, let myself get caught up, anyways. When he saw that I could repair carts and wagons, he let me live with them. It was thanks to his kindness that I was able to set up my shop, and that’s how I moved to Ponyville.”
  210. >He looks at you and smiles.
  211. >”Thank you for listening to a old stallion talk your ear off.”
  212. >You laugh, but shake your head.
  213. “I don’t mind Carl, you’re my favorite stallion after all.”
  214. >He gives a small chuckle and coughs.
  215. “Easy there, don’t over do it.”
  216. >Carl catches his breath, and looks back to you with a smile.
  217. >”You flatter me too much Ms. Rest, I’ll let you go, you have your work to do.”
  218. >You wouldn’t mind listening to him more, but he is right.
  219. “Of course, take it easy Carl.”
  220. >As you leave his room, you can feel that nagging thought in the back of your mind.
  221. >It never stops, not while you work, not while at home.
  222. >’They all die eventually.’
  223. >You stop and close your eyes tightly in an attempt to shove those thoughts out of your head.
  224. >Taking a breath, you continue forth.
  225. >After you finish writing up your reports, you head to the locker room to finish off the day.
  226. >You put away your uniform and grab your bags, but the feeling is still there, distracting you.
  227. >Betty tries to get your attention.
  228. >”Are you alright Rest?”
  229. >Shaking your head, you smile.
  230. “Yeah, just a long day.”
  231. >”Tell me about it, I’m going to head home, take care.”
  232. “You too.”
  233. >You head outside and the evening greets you
  234. >The land is bathed in a cool light, though to you it feels gray.
  235. >It always feels like the trot home is faster than to work.
  236.  
  237. >Entering your apartment, you call out.
  238. “I’m home.”
  239. >Silence.
  240. >Of course no pony else is here.
  241. >You are alone after all, not that you wouldn’t mind having a special somepony.
  242. >Just need to find a balance of social life and work life.
  243. >Sighing, that’s probably never going to happen.
  244. >Setting your bags aside, you head to the kitchen.
  245. >You grab some leftovers from the fridge.
  246. >After sitting down , you try to eat and read to distract yourself.
  247. >But the thoughts remain, tormenting you.
  248. >’You can’t save everypony.’
  249. >No.
  250. >You don’t finish eating, and throw out what little is left.
  251. “Just splash some water on my face, come on Rest.”
  252. >You head to the bathroom, you try just that.
  253. >But like earlier, the single thought plagues you.
  254. >’They all die eventually.’
  255. >You just need to sleep, that will help.
  256. >Heading to the bedroom, you turn off the lights and climb under the covers.
  257. >Minutes turn into an hour.
  258. >Fortunately, sleep finally takes you, but doesn’t stop you from being restless.

/emo/ Sorrowful Melody

by NHanon

/bootleg/ Concerned Pony shorts

by NHanon

/bootleg/ Tinny the tin foil conspiracy pony

by NHanon

/emo/ A trot in the night

by NHanon

/bootleg/ Punkfire Xmas

by NHanon