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/emo/ Deep suffering, chp 1

By NHanon
Created: 2020-10-23 15:39:46
Expiry: Never

  1. 1.
    >Repeated beeping awakens you.
  2. 2.
    >Letting out a groan, you quickly shut off the alarm clock.
  3. 3.
    >Taking a breath, you sit up and stretch slowly.
  4. 4.
    >Just another long day in store.
  5. 5.
    >You are Deep Rest, nurse extraordinaire!
  6. 6.
    >Technically a doctor, but working as a nurse a little less stressful and you get to bond with patients more.
  7. 7.
    >Rising out of your bed, you look around your apartment.
  8. 8.
    >It’s a little cramped, but you have plenty of room for what little you what have.
  9. 9.
    >Heading to the bathroom, you go through the usual routine of bathing and brushing.
  10. 10.
    >Always a pain, but you try to look your best despite your colors of your coat and mane.
  11. 11.
    >Won’t be long now till your shift starts, then the real day begins.
  12. 12.
    >Stepping into the kitchen, you try to psych yourself up.
  13. 13.
    >It’s always difficult though.
  14. 14.
    >Especially with the effects of last nights drinking still lingering.
  15. 15.
    >Thankfully, you didn’t overdo it.
  16. 16.
    >Still doesn’t help the dull pain in your head.
  17. 17.
    >You take out a box of cereal and a bowl.
  18. 18.
    >You should really get around to making something a little better than glorified cardboard.
  19. 19.
    >Reading the side of the box it says ‘Fills you with energy to get you through the day!’
  20. 20.
    “What a crock of shit, gotta sell to the masses somehow.”
  21. 21.
    >Sitting down at the table, you open up a book and read while you eat.
  22. 22.
    >It’s nothing special, just an issue of this years medical journal.
  23. 23.
    >In truth, you already know most of this stuff like the back of your hoof.
  24. 24.
    >Doesn’t hurt to get a refresher.
  25. 25.
    >Before long, you finish up and start to prep to head to work.
  26. 26.
    >Grabbing your saddle bags, keys, and putting on your wristband, you stop to give yourself a pep talk.
  27. 27.
    “Alright Rest, just gotta put on your best face. Remember! Do it for the patients, do it for them.”
  28. 28.
    >If anypony were to hear you now, likely your neighbors, they’d probably think your crazy.
  29. 29.
    >Then again, they already hear you talk to yourself.
  30. 30.
     
  31. 31.
    >Especially when you drink.
  32. 32.
    >Taking one final breath, you leave your apartment to the early morning.
  33. 33.
    >The sun is slowly rising, and the air is still crisp.
  34. 34.
    >Despite how everything feels so bright and lively.
  35. 35.
    >It always seems like a thin veil covers it all.
  36. 36.
    >Pushing aside those thoughts, you trot down the road, waving to the few ponies up and about this morning.
  37. 37.
    >Slowly you approach your work, Ponyville General.
  38. 38.
    >The pale yellow walls and brown shingled roof give off a rustic feel.
  39. 39.
    >It feels welcoming and makes the patients feel at ease.
  40. 40.
    >As you reach the entrance, you stop and close your eyes, giving yourself one final push.
  41. 41.
    >Do it for them, never forget, do it for them.
  42. 42.
    >Opening your eyes again, you head inside.
  43. 43.
    >Passing by both patients and staff alike, you greet them with a smile.
  44. 44.
    >This place is like a maze at times, but you could navigate it blind folded.
  45. 45.
    >Entering the locker room, you see the other nurses getting ready.
  46. 46.
    >One in particular catches your attention
  47. 47.
    >Your friend Bedside Manner, though she prefers that you call her Betty.
  48. 48.
    >Her turquoise coat and red mane make her stand out a fair bit.
  49. 49.
    >But at least that makes her easy to pick out.
  50. 50.
    >Going through your locker, she grabs your attention.
  51. 51.
    >”Morning Rest, how was your weekend?”
  52. 52.
    >Short, tiring, and you drank too much.
  53. 53.
    >She doesn’t need to know that.
  54. 54.
    “Morning Betty. It went pretty good, did some reading. How about you?”
  55. 55.
    >She smiles.
  56. 56.
    >”Mine was boring, ready for another exciting day of saving ponies from a runny nose?”
  57. 57.
    >You give her a smirk, and reply with your own sarcasm.
  58. 58.
    “Of course, and I can’t wait to take the temperature of each stallion who asks if they have a fever.”
  59. 59.
    >You share a giggle between the two of you.
  60. 60.
    >While you don’t see each other much outside of work, it’s nice to have some pony to talk to.
  61. 61.
    >She rolls her eyes.
  62. 62.
     
  63. 63.
    >”Yeah, that never gets old.”
  64. 64.
    “At least it’s all worth it. Can never be too careful after all.”
  65. 65.
    >While she doesn’t share your conviction, no pony does, she does nod.
  66. 66.
    >”That’s true. Well, I’ll see you later then.”
  67. 67.
    “See you later Betty.”
  68. 68.
    >Waving her off, you finish getting ready.
  69. 69.
    >As you reach the group, you can see the usual nurses gathered around.
  70. 70.
    >Time to get your assignments and updates on what happened this weekend.
  71. 71.
    >The head nurse goes through her usual motions of reminding every nurse of their duties.
  72. 72.
    >Part of you wish she didn’t, but sometimes the others need a reminder.
  73. 73.
    >You listen to the important bits and wait for her to give your patients.
  74. 74.
    >”Alright Deep, here you are.”
  75. 75.
    >You quickly scan the names, but two in particular catch your eye.
  76. 76.
    >Cart Wheel and Sky Light.
  77. 77.
    >You’ve known Cart, well Carl, since you were a filly.
  78. 78.
    >As for Sky, you remember him being born here.
  79. 79.
    >You feel a little joy and a bit of concern enter your heart.
  80. 80.
    >Giving the paper one final look, you start to make your rounds.
  81. 81.
    >Mostly talking with patients, replacing equipment, and checking vitals.
  82. 82.
    >But you get through it.
  83. 83.
    >Carl and Sky are a bit high on your priority list.
  84. 84.
    >Namely because Carl has been here for weeks, and Sky was brought in over the weekend.
  85. 85.
    >Fortunately, first on the list is Sky.
  86. 86.
    >Entering the room, you see Sky laying in bed under the covers with his mother sitting bedside.
  87. 87.
    >High Light is her name, and she looks awful.
  88. 88.
    >Not that you blame her, Sky is a regular here.
  89. 89.
    >The poor colt was born premature and thus has had a whole host of problems.
  90. 90.
    >Upon seeing you, he sits up a little fast before coughing.
  91. 91.
    >His mother reaches him quickly.
  92. 92.
    >>”Slow down Sky, not too fast, remember what the doctor said.”
  93. 93.
    >He nods and lays back, but with a eager look on his face.
  94. 94.
    “How’s my favorite colt?”
  95. 95.
    >He gives you a big smile.
  96. 96.
     
  97. 97.
    >”Hi Rest, I’m happy to see you again.”
  98. 98.
    >You nod and feel a swell of happiness.
  99. 99.
    “I’m happy to see you as well. How about we chat while I do my work?”
  100. 100.
    >Picking up the chart, you see why he is here.
  101. 101.
    >Pneumonia.
  102. 102.
    >A small bit of panic hits you, but you have learned to hide that from others.
  103. 103.
    >Just continue smiling Rest, he is here now and will get through this.
  104. 104.
    >He always pulls through, just like the last several times he was here.
  105. 105.
    >As you perform your duties, you both start to talk.
  106. 106.
    >”Mhm, mom reminds me that you have stuff to do.” He looks to her with a smile and continues on. “But your my favorite nurse.”
  107. 107.
    >High Light looks a little happier seeing her son so lively.
  108. 108.
    >You let out a small giggle.
  109. 109.
    “Thank you light. How has school been?”
  110. 110.
    >”It’s going great, I’ve just learned about the uni-uni-”
  111. 111.
    >>”Unification.” Says Mrs. Light.
  112. 112.
    >”Unification of the three tribes.” He says with a bright smile.
  113. 113.
    >This colt is just melting your heart.
  114. 114.
    >You write down a few more numbers, all good so far.
  115. 115.
    “Sounds cool Sky, what’s your favorite part?”
  116. 116.
    >He coughs again and his mother gently strokes his foreleg.
  117. 117.
    >”When fire of friendship blasted away the windigos!”
  118. 118.
    >He gestures and makes the noise of an explosion.
  119. 119.
    >If you get diabetes from him, you don’t care.
  120. 120.
    “That’s my favorite part as well.”
  121. 121.
    >You make sure he doesn’t need anything else replaced.
  122. 122.
    >”Mom got me a new train too!”
  123. 123.
    >Taking a quick glance, you see she looking at him with tired eyes.
  124. 124.
    >Still full of love, but so much pain.
  125. 125.
    “Awesome, you’ve got to show me sometime, did you thank your mom?”
  126. 126.
    >Turning back to him, you see he takes a moment, trying not to cough.
  127. 127.
    >”Mhm, I was super happy and couldn’t stop thanking her.”
  128. 128.
    >She lets out a small laugh.
  129. 129.
    >>”You sure did, now don’t get too excited Sky.”
  130. 130.
    >He looks to her and frowns.
  131. 131.
    >”I won’t, you and the doctor keep reminding me.”
  132. 132.
     
  133. 133.
    “Well they are right to do that. You have to remember you’re a little sick right now.”
  134. 134.
    >”I know, I can’t wait to get better.”
  135. 135.
    >You share his enthusiasm.
  136. 136.
    >Sadly, you have to go on with your rounds.
  137. 137.
    “You will Sky, that will take time, but I got to go now. Be good for your mom, okay?”
  138. 138.
    >He nods a little and his mother mouths a thank you.
  139. 139.
    >You continue to make your way about the floor checking on the various patients.
  140. 140.
    >The majority of them will make a full recovery and some are being released today.
  141. 141.
    >That doesn’t stop the dread that creeps within.
  142. 142.
    >Finishing up, you head to the cafeteria, and go grab lunch.
  143. 143.
    >You’d pack your own, but you procrastinate.
  144. 144.
    >Besides, what they serve here is better than what you make at home.
  145. 145.
    >Grabbing a salad, you find your usual spot.
  146. 146.
    >Slowly you start to eat, but eventually you just pick at it.
  147. 147.
    >’What if Light dies?’
  148. 148.
    >You know that you and the staff will do everything in your power to prevent it.
  149. 149.
    >But that still doesn’t stop the thought.
  150. 150.
    >’That doesn’t change things.’
  151. 151.
    >He’s so young.
  152. 152.
    >Suddenly, Betty joins you and snaps you out of it.
  153. 153.
    ”Saved you a seat.”
  154. 154.
    >She nods and starts to gossip.
  155. 155.
    >”You didn’t hear it from me, but I heard that Doctor Monitor and Gentle Care are seeing one another.”
  156. 156.
    >In truth, you really don’t care for gossip.
  157. 157.
    “Really?”
  158. 158.
    >You try to stay with the conversation, but you can’t stop worrying.
  159. 159.
    >”-They work together though.”
  160. 160.
    >Barely catching the end of it, you start to let your attention drift.
  161. 161.
    “Uh-huh.”
  162. 162.
    >She stops talking.
  163. 163.
    >And you look back up, you can see her trying to read you.
  164. 164.
    “What?”
  165. 165.
    >”You’re thinking about the patients again, aren’t you?”
  166. 166.
    >You’re trying to ignore that thought still, but you guess you can’t hide it that well.
  167. 167.
    “Is it that obvious?”
  168. 168.
    >She nods, and gives you look of understanding.
  169. 169.
    >”It’s okay, I know you’re passionate about them.”
  170. 170.
    “Yeah, hard to ignore it.”
  171. 171.
     
  172. 172.
    >She reaches out and touches your hoof.
  173. 173.
    >”Just remember, you can’t let it get to you. Never forget what we learned in medical school.”
  174. 174.
    >Never get too attached, something you always failed at.
  175. 175.
    >It helps alleviate the worry a little.
  176. 176.
    “Yeah, I know.”
  177. 177.
    >She nods before looking over to the clock.
  178. 178.
    >”Alright, I’m going to finish up my shift. Good luck with yours.”
  179. 179.
    >If only it was that easy.
  180. 180.
    “Yeah, good luck to you as well.”
  181. 181.
    >After lunch, you go about your duties.
  182. 182.
    >Just like before, you find that the patients are doing just fine.
  183. 183.
    >That’s when you come to your last stop.
  184. 184.
    >Carl’s room.
  185. 185.
    >Entering, you see the elderly stallion.
  186. 186.
    >A faded brown coat, white mane, and icy blue eyes that look back at you.
  187. 187.
    >You give him a smile.
  188. 188.
    “Hello Carl, how are you feeling today?”
  189. 189.
    >He slowly smiles and clears his throat.
  190. 190.
    >”Hello Ms. Rest, I’m feeling fine, same as usual.”
  191. 191.
    >You pick up his chart, everything reads stable, but you can’t ignore the fear inside of you.
  192. 192.
    >He has been here a while after his granddaughter brought him in.
  193. 193.
    >Sadly, he has been having shortness of breath and it culminated in him fainting.
  194. 194.
    >Thankfully, she visits daily.
  195. 195.
    “That’s good to hear, I’m certain you’ll be out of here in no time.”
  196. 196.
    >Nodding he continues.
  197. 197.
    >”So did I ever tell you about when I first moved here to Ponyville?”
  198. 198.
    >You’ve heard him tell you this story many times, but you don’t mind.
  199. 199.
    “No I haven’t Carl, I’m happy to listen.”
  200. 200.
    >As you check the usual, he starts.
  201. 201.
    >”So I had just moved out of my family’s farm, and had all my stuff in a cart.” He chuckles. “I had wanted to experience the life outside of the farm, and had heard of a new town.”
  202. 202.
    >He takes a moment and licks his lips.
  203. 203.
    >”It was a nightmare to travel those roads back then, I pushed on. When I finally got here, I had no bits in my pouch or a place to stay. I wasn’t the brightest, but I was determined.”
  204. 204.
     
  205. 205.
    >You nod along, changing his IV.
  206. 206.
    >”Coincidentally I met my wife then, her family let me stay at their home. Her father was worried I was there to take his daughter.” He gets a twinkle in his eyes. “Of course I wasn’t, but that stop me later.”
  207. 207.
    >Finishing up, you turn to hear the rest of his story.
  208. 208.
    >He shakes his head slightly.
  209. 209.
    >”Sorry, let myself get caught up, anyways. When he saw that I could repair carts and wagons, he let me live with them. It was thanks to his kindness that I was able to set up my shop, and that’s how I moved to Ponyville.”
  210. 210.
    >He looks at you and smiles.
  211. 211.
    >”Thank you for listening to a old stallion talk your ear off.”
  212. 212.
    >You laugh, but shake your head.
  213. 213.
    “I don’t mind Carl, you’re my favorite stallion after all.”
  214. 214.
    >He gives a small chuckle and coughs.
  215. 215.
    “Easy there, don’t over do it.”
  216. 216.
    >Carl catches his breath, and looks back to you with a smile.
  217. 217.
    >”You flatter me too much Ms. Rest, I’ll let you go, you have your work to do.”
  218. 218.
    >You wouldn’t mind listening to him more, but he is right.
  219. 219.
    “Of course, take it easy Carl.”
  220. 220.
    >As you leave his room, you can feel that nagging thought in the back of your mind.
  221. 221.
    >It never stops, not while you work, not while at home.
  222. 222.
    >’They all die eventually.’
  223. 223.
    >You stop and close your eyes tightly in an attempt to shove those thoughts out of your head.
  224. 224.
    >Taking a breath, you continue forth.
  225. 225.
    >After you finish writing up your reports, you head to the locker room to finish off the day.
  226. 226.
    >You put away your uniform and grab your bags, but the feeling is still there, distracting you.
  227. 227.
    >Betty tries to get your attention.
  228. 228.
    >”Are you alright Rest?”
  229. 229.
    >Shaking your head, you smile.
  230. 230.
    “Yeah, just a long day.”
  231. 231.
    >”Tell me about it, I’m going to head home, take care.”
  232. 232.
    “You too.”
  233. 233.
    >You head outside and the evening greets you
  234. 234.
    >The land is bathed in a cool light, though to you it feels gray.
  235. 235.
    >It always feels like the trot home is faster than to work.
  236. 236.
     
  237. 237.
    >Entering your apartment, you call out.
  238. 238.
    “I’m home.”
  239. 239.
    >Silence.
  240. 240.
    >Of course no pony else is here.
  241. 241.
    >You are alone after all, not that you wouldn’t mind having a special somepony.
  242. 242.
    >Just need to find a balance of social life and work life.
  243. 243.
    >Sighing, that’s probably never going to happen.
  244. 244.
    >Setting your bags aside, you head to the kitchen.
  245. 245.
    >You grab some leftovers from the fridge.
  246. 246.
    >After sitting down , you try to eat and read to distract yourself.
  247. 247.
    >But the thoughts remain, tormenting you.
  248. 248.
    >’You can’t save everypony.’
  249. 249.
    >No.
  250. 250.
    >You don’t finish eating, and throw out what little is left.
  251. 251.
    “Just splash some water on my face, come on Rest.”
  252. 252.
    >You head to the bathroom, you try just that.
  253. 253.
    >But like earlier, the single thought plagues you.
  254. 254.
    >’They all die eventually.’
  255. 255.
    >You just need to sleep, that will help.
  256. 256.
    >Heading to the bedroom, you turn off the lights and climb under the covers.
  257. 257.
    >Minutes turn into an hour.
  258. 258.
    >Fortunately, sleep finally takes you, but doesn’t stop you from being restless.

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