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/emo/ Sorrowful Melody

By NHanon
Created: 2021-05-20 23:48:33
Expiry: Never

  1. 1.
    >“Have a good night, Miss.”
  2. 2.
    “To you as well.”
  3. 3.
    >Stepping away from the taxi, it speeds off into the night.
  4. 4.
    >While you could’ve had him drop you off at home, this was just fine.
  5. 5.
    >Besides, a short stroll won’t kill you.
  6. 6.
    >Tonight’s show went rather splendidly as expected.
  7. 7.
    >Though you’re a tad drained from it.
  8. 8.
    >Between time spent practicing, writing your own music, and even teaching on the side, it’s not surprising.
  9. 9.
    >Taking far too much on your plate often is quite a bad habit of yours.
  10. 10.
    >Really need to work on breaking that so you can have less stress in your life in general.
  11. 11.
    >Maybe you should take a vacation to help unwind.
  12. 12.
    >Will have to think more on that later, for now, you let your attention drift upward as you trot along.
  13. 13.
    >Luna’s sky is really quite beautiful.
  14. 14.
    >Despite the light cloud cover, the various twinkling stars and the pale moon peek out occasionally.
  15. 15.
    >Such a sight to behold that draws a smile upon your lips.
  16. 16.
    >However, your cello case decides to spoil the moment by shifting to one side.
  17. 17.
    >You pause briefly to readjust it, appears the strap has loosened again.
  18. 18.
    >Just something to deal with when you get home.
  19. 19.
    >Not far now either, then you can properly fix it and from there-
  20. 20.
    >*grumble*
  21. 21.
    >On second thought, getting something to eat first, then you can figure out what to do.
  22. 22.
    >Spent more time chatting with the VIPs and snacking instead of actually eating.
  23. 23.
    >It’s worth it though, each conversation has the potential for greater opportunities.
  24. 24.
    >That’s what every great musician does, just like mother said.
  25. 25.
    >Although… not all the time.
  26. 26.
    >Your fellow musicians do have lives outside of work in comparison to you.
  27. 27.
    >Have heard them talk about their friends and their loved ones they spend time with.
  28. 28.
    >What friends you have are more like business acquaintances, and don’t actually have loved ones.
  29. 29.
    >Mother is still around sure, but she seems to only visit once in a great while to check in with your career.
  30. 30.
     
  31. 31.
    >Now that you’re thinking about it, are you actually alone Octavia?
  32. 32.
    “I…”
  33. 33.
    >A pit forms in your gut, slowing your trot.
  34. 34.
    >There has to be somepony you can think of, right?
  35. 35.
    “…”
  36. 36.
    >Shaking your head, you ignore that train of thought, focusing on getting home.
  37. 37.
    >Thankfully you’re not too far now, can see it just ahead.
  38. 38.
    >Though it appears that something, or rather in this case, somepony is by your doorstep.
  39. 39.
    >And from what you can hear from the snoring, they’re fast asleep.
  40. 40.
    “...wonderful.”
  41. 41.
    >Likely some poor soul who had one too many to drink and passed out on their way home.
  42. 42.
    >Going to have to be careful in dealing with them.
  43. 43.
    >Taking a brief moment to prepare yourself, you put on a polite smile and come up to their side.
  44. 44.
    >Upon closer inspection, it appears to be a mare with a grayish coat and a dark colored mane much like yours.
  45. 45.
    >She almost seems familiar, then again there are many mares out there with colors similar to yours.
  46. 46.
    >Either way, you reach out and gently try to rouse her from slumber.
  47. 47.
    “Excuse me.”
  48. 48.
    >No response, still fast asleep, so you try again with more effort.
  49. 49.
    “Miss, please wake up.”
  50. 50.
    >She lets out a muffled snort, but still not budging otherwise.
  51. 51.
    >Alright enough being polite, this time you shake her vigorously and she finally starts to stir.
  52. 52.
    “You need to get up and go home, you can’t sleep here.”
  53. 53.
    >“...mghmf’Octavia, is th-that you?”
  54. 54.
    >You take a step back in surprise at the groggy yet familiar voice.
  55. 55.
    “Miss Eri?”
  56. 56.
    >She raises her head up at the mention of her name, looking at you with tired eyes.
  57. 57.
    >There is no doubt about it, would recognized those colors anywhere.
  58. 58.
    >Almost certain that she appears far more haggard than last time you saw her.
  59. 59.
    >Slowly blinking, she licks her lips and her eyes dart to the side.
  60. 60.
    >“H-Hey, um… c-can I come in?”
  61. 61.
    “Yes, just give me a moment.”
  62. 62.
    >You unlock the door, head in to set aside your things and light a few candles before returning to her.
  63. 63.
     
  64. 64.
    >She keeps her head lowered as she trudges inside, clearly burdened with something.
  65. 65.
    >Don’t need to ask, she’ll likely tell you soon enough.
  66. 66.
    >Because this isn’t the first, nor will it likely be the last time she’s shown up like this.
  67. 67.
    >You enter the living room with her following close behind, when you turn to speak, you’re able to see her features clearly in the light.
  68. 68.
    >To say she looks terrible is an understatement; makeup smudged, bags under her pink bloodshot eyes, and mane is quite greasy like it hasn’t been washed in days.
  69. 69.
    “...oh dear…”
  70. 70.
    >She winces at your words, squeezing her eyes shut for a second and turns her head away.
  71. 71.
    >Regret immediately washes over you like a great wave as you try to salvage this.
  72. 72.
    “I’m sorry Eri, I didn’t mean to-”
  73. 73.
    >“It’s fine, don’t apologize… I know I look like trash.”
  74. 74.
    “No, it was rude of me, I truly am sorry.”
  75. 75.
    >“Just-just stop, don’t, please…”
  76. 76.
    >You’re open your mouth to try again, but stop.
  77. 77.
    >Wouldn’t matter if you showered her in compliments or apologized a million times, she doesn’t seem to acknowledge nor believe them.
  78. 78.
    >Always seeing each as some thinly veiled insult and or lie instead.
  79. 79.
    >Despite that, she must have enough truth in you to come here.
  80. 80.
    >Saying nothing more, she takes a seat on the couch, eyes glued to the floor.
  81. 81.
    “Listen, I’ll be right back, just need to get something. We can talk after if you like.”
  82. 82.
    >“...sure.”
  83. 83.
    >Feels like a heavy weight is forming on your heart as you enter the kitchen.
  84. 84.
    >Have a very strong feeling that this night will end up emotional.
  85. 85.
    >One of the many reasons you keep something stronger than wine around.
  86. 86.
    >That very something is a bottle of liquor you pull out from a cabinet along with two glasses.
  87. 87.
    >You pour yourself some and knock back the drink immediately.
  88. 88.
    >The liquid burns as it goes down your throat, causing you to shiver.
  89. 89.
    >A warmth rapidly blooms within your belly, slowly spreading outwards to your limbs.
  90. 90.
     
  91. 91.
    >It’s stuff like this that makes it easier to handle any burden you might feel.
  92. 92.
    >Also enough to remember how you first met Miss Eri.
  93. 93.
    >Was close to her mother growing up, became the best of friends for a time.
  94. 94.
    >Went to the same school, had similar interests, even got your cutie marks about the same time too.
  95. 95.
    >Almost seemed like nothing could separate you two.
  96. 96.
    >Ponies change however, like all things.
  97. 97.
    >While you were first trying to get somewhere with your career, a handsome stallion swept her off her hooves like in a romance novel.
  98. 98.
    >From then on, started seeing one another less and less.
  99. 99.
    >Eventually you managed to catch some fame and was traveled across Equestria to perform.
  100. 100.
    >Spent so much time abroad and little time at home, that you hadn’t seen her for years.
  101. 101.
    >That is until the day you ran into one another at the market.
  102. 102.
    >Almost didn’t recognized her; looked like Tartarus had chewed her up and spat her out.
  103. 103.
    >She recognized you immediately though, sparking up a conversation like nothing had changed.
  104. 104.
    >Talked for a time, mostly about life in general.
  105. 105.
    >Didn’t take long to notice that she kept dodging personal questions, focusing entirely on you.
  106. 106.
    >Quickly understood enough to see what had happened, but you kept it to yourself.
  107. 107.
    >You two had to part eventually, though decided to meet again later on to catch up more.
  108. 108.
    >It was then at the park when you were introduced to Eri.
  109. 109.
    >She was a little foal, wrapped in a blanket, laying within a stroller, as pure and innocent as could be.
  110. 110.
    >Felt such love at first sight, along with envy.
  111. 111.
    >Have always wanted a family, just kept focusing on saving the bits, finding the right stallion, the usual stuff.
  112. 112.
    >But you’ve been telling yourself that for so very long now.
  113. 113.
    >Because at the rate things keep going, you’re going to never have a family and will die alone.
  114. 114.
    >You refill your glass and down it.
  115. 115.
    *cough cough*
  116. 116.
     
  117. 117.
    >Shouldn’t be reminiscing so much, rather not leave Eri alone for too long.
  118. 118.
    >Returning to the living room, she’s still planted on the couch, attention elsewhere.
  119. 119.
    >You set the glasses down on the coffee table and fill them.
  120. 120.
    >“...thanks.”
  121. 121.
    “You’re welcome.”
  122. 122.
    >She picks up her glass and takes a sip, shuddering.
  123. 123.
    >Really shouldn’t be letting her drink, but you know it helps, if only a little.
  124. 124.
    >At least that’s what you tell yourself.
  125. 125.
    >Minutes pass by in silence, the two of you sipping your drinks occasionally, feeling the tension slowly rise.
  126. 126.
    >A part of you wishes she would open up instead of being silent.
  127. 127.
    >The other part is stronger and knows better, can’t rush her.
  128. 128.
    >A few more minutes pass before she turns her head to you a little.
  129. 129.
    >“Can I tell you something?”
  130. 130.
    “Yes of course, you can tell me anything you like Missy.”
  131. 131.
    >Her breath hitches, and for a split second it seems like she’s about to smile.
  132. 132.
    >However, she just exhales audibly, seeming to gather herself.
  133. 133.
    >“Haven’t been sleeping well… still restless I guess. When morning finally came around, found myself just laying there; staring off into the nothing. I realized something, and that thought kept repeating in my head.”
  134. 134.
    >Her eyes shift form spot to spot on the carpet as her ears flatten against her head.
  135. 135.
    >“It feels like there is no direction in my life, no purpose; sleep, wake, go to school; drown in sorrow, and repeat, that’s it. It’s like everyday is the same, it’s all I ever do.”
  136. 136.
    >Taking a brief pause to take a drink, she cringes and shakes her head before continuing.
  137. 137.
    >“Skipped school today too, not like it matters. Teachers keep telling me I need to fix my grades or I won’t be able to graduate, that I won’t be able to go; do anything in life. You know what though? I don’t do anything now except suffer, so it’s not like anything is going to change anyways.”
  138. 138.
    >Already suspected as much, not that you can do much about it.
  139. 139.
     
  140. 140.
    >Have tried before to help her in such things, but her problems run so deep that it seems almost impossible to make a dent in them.
  141. 141.
    >“It’s not like I have anyone or anypony either; no friends, no dad, and mom is just… no, you already know about /her/. There seems to be nothing for me in life, just endless pain, I just – I just don’t know what to do anymore.”
  142. 142.
    >Pursing your lips, can hear warning bells going off inside your head.
  143. 143.
    “That’s not true, you have me.”
  144. 144.
    >Nodding slowly, she rubs one foreleg over the other, seeming to pay attention to them.
  145. 145.
    >“Suppose that’s true but – no, never mind…”
  146. 146.
    “Missy please continue, you know you can tell me anything and I won’t judge you.”
  147. 147.
    >Eri bites her lip and turns her head away briefly to rub her eyes.
  148. 148.
    >You remain steadfast in hoping that she’ll continue, sometimes she stops talking altogether and stays the night; leaving in the morning.
  149. 149.
    >Minutes pass before she turns her attention back, this time really looking at you with those beautiful pink eyes.
  150. 150.
    >“I keep thinking that you’ll get sick of me, sick of all this garbage I dump on you every time I’m here. That one day you’ll finally have enough and give up, abandon me like everypony else has; that I’ll be completely alone in this world…”
  151. 151.
    “Those are just bad thoughts full of lies that plague you.”
  152. 152.
    >She shakes her head.
  153. 153.
    >“Everypony tells me that, always saying none of my problems are real.”
  154. 154.
    “I’m not like everypony else, otherwise I wouldn’t be here.”
  155. 155.
    >“...for how long though?”
  156. 156.
    “For as long as I can.”
  157. 157.
    >Various emotions cross her face as she sits there staring at you.
  158. 158.
    >Eventually only a few remain; anger, sadness, and most of all, regret.
  159. 159.
    >“I-I think I’ve said too much, I should go.”
  160. 160.
    >She sets aside the glass and gets up.
  161. 161.
    >Darn it, you need to keep trying, think of something.
  162. 162.
    “Missy wait, please don’t shut me out, I want to help you.”
  163. 163.
     
  164. 164.
    >She stops mid-step, turning her head towards you slightly.
  165. 165.
    >“Why?”
  166. 166.
    “Because I care about you.”
  167. 167.
    >“...you’re not my mother, you’re just some pony I’ve talked to.”
  168. 168.
    >You wince at her words, feeling like somepony bucked you hard in the barrel.
  169. 169.
    >Eyes start to feel misty, making you turn away from her.
  170. 170.
    “I… I know. But I’m really trying for you.”
  171. 171.
    >It’s becoming quite difficult to not start choking up.
  172. 172.
    >In the end, you only partially manage to avoid letting go as a few tears escape.
  173. 173.
    >You squeeze your eyes shut, awaiting the sound of the door closing.
  174. 174.
    >Instead, her hooffalls approach slowly, just stopping short of where she sat.
  175. 175.
    >“Are you crying?”
  176. 176.
    “I’m okay, you can go, I won’t stop you.”
  177. 177.
    >Something in your words must’ve hit somewhere, because she starts to breath heavier.
  178. 178.
    >“Oh no. No, no! I’m so stupid – idiot! I’m sorry Octavia, please don’t hate me, I don’t mean – didn’t me-mean to… I just-just… I’M SORRY!”
  179. 179.
    >At that, she drops onto the floor, sobbing.
  180. 180.
    >“I’m s-sorry! I’m so-sorry.. I-I’m sorry Octavia! Please d-don’t leave me...”
  181. 181.
    >You quickly get up and wrap your legs around her in a hug.
  182. 182.
    >She latches on like a foal would to their mother, crying deeply into your coat.
  183. 183.
    >Your own tears cascade slowly down your face as you gently rub back.
  184. 184.
    “Shh… it’s okay, I forgive you, I’m right here, I’m not going anywhere Missy.”
  185. 185.
    >Should’ve seen this coming from past experiences, but hindsight is twenty-twenty.
  186. 186.
    >While a part of you wishes to take her in and solve her problems, things are not that simple.
  187. 187.
    >There are various reasons preventing such efforts.
  188. 188.
    >Those reasons are unimportant right now as two hold onto one another.
  189. 189.
    >Maybe someday, somehow, you can find a way to defeat the evil that torments her so much.
  190. 190.
    >For now though, you’ll do whatever you can.
  191. 191.
    >Because despite her hurtful words, Eri is the closest thing to a daughter you’ve ever had.

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