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/emo/ Unstable Symphony, chp 8 (Alternate Ending)

By NHanon
Created: 2020-10-23 15:55:09
Expiry: Never
/emo/connie amoregrimdark

  1. 1.
    >You pause in front of the mail boxes.
  2. 2.
    >It wouldn’t hurt to check, right?
  3. 3.
    >No point, not like anypony wants to write to you
  4. 4.
    >Heading upstairs to your apartment, you enter the empty home.
  5. 5.
    “I’m home.”
  6. 6.
    >Silence greets you.
  7. 7.
    >Dropping your bags, you pull out the bottle you bought.
  8. 8.
    >You head into the living room and put on a record.
  9. 9.
    “Some music will help me relax while I drink.”
  10. 10.
    >’You do know that drinking will only make it worse.’
  11. 11.
    “I don’t care.”
  12. 12.
    >’We’ll see about that.’
  13. 13.
    >Opening the bottle, the smell bucks you in the face.
  14. 14.
    “A little strong.”
  15. 15.
    >You pour yourself a glass and prepare yourself.
  16. 16.
    “I remember others saying I should down it in one go, so here goes nothing.”
  17. 17.
    >Quickly mimicking what you’ve seen, the liquor goes down your throat.
  18. 18.
    >It feels like your throat is on fire, and you start coughing.
  19. 19.
    >’Bad move Connie.’
  20. 20.
    >Your body heaves, and eventually the coughing slows down.
  21. 21.
    “How do ponies drink this?!”
  22. 22.
    >A small bit of warmth starts to course through you.
  23. 23.
    >’Look at you, a drinker now. Are you going to whore yourself out too?’
  24. 24.
    “Shut up.”
  25. 25.
    >You pour another glass and drink it just like before.
  26. 26.
    >And like before, you cough again.
  27. 27.
    >’Keep drinking, maybe you’ll do something right and die.’
  28. 28.
    “I said shut up.”
  29. 29.
    >The warmth grows, and you don’t feel as hollow.
  30. 30.
    “More is the answer, right?”
  31. 31.
    >Filling another glass, you down it this time without coughing.
  32. 32.
    >’Going to keep drinking to shut down the truth? You know the orchestra already is judging you.’
  33. 33.
    “Fuck off.”
  34. 34.
    >’When they smell the alcohol on your breath, they will get rid of you for sure.’
  35. 35.
    >You shake your head, you feel a little woozy.
  36. 36.
    “No, this is just temporary. The doctor will get back to me and everything will be fine.”
  37. 37.
    >Taking another drink, the hollowness you felt is gone.
  38. 38.
    >However, you start to feel sad.
  39. 39.
     
  40. 40.
    >’There is no cure for what Eri is going through remember? Since you’re a bigger freak, there isn’t one for you either. You’re fucked Connie.’
  41. 41.
    >Without warning a sob escapes.
  42. 42.
    “No.”
  43. 43.
    >’You’ve already ruined your career, your friendships, and now, your life.’
  44. 44.
    “I didn’t mean to do it, it was an accident.”
  45. 45.
    >’They don’t see it that way. Remember how Feather only cared about herself? Remember how she lied to you?’
  46. 46.
    >You hunch over and more tears escape.
  47. 47.
    “She’s my friend, she didn’t lie to me.”
  48. 48.
     
  49. 49.
    >’Wow, you actually believe that? What kind of pony would be your friend? You’ve always been awkward, don’t you remember how the other foals ignored you?’
  50. 50.
    >You try to ignore it and finish the bottle.
  51. 51.
    “Why isn’t this working? I don’t want to hurt.”
  52. 52.
    >’You’ve always been alone, you’re a freak and a loser. Do the world a favor and end it all Connie.’
  53. 53.
    >Sobbing, you cry out.
  54. 54.
    “No, please stop this!”
  55. 55.
    >’Stop? No! It’s high time you hear the truth, from yourself no less. No pony loves you and you’re a waste of space.’
  56. 56.
    >Falling from the stool you curl into a ball crying.
  57. 57.
    >’You can’t escape this, not anymore. This is what you really want, to finally be free.’
  58. 58.
    >Mind keeps racing, heart is pounding, and your vision is blurry.
  59. 59.
    “No! I don’t want that.”
  60. 60.
    >’Stop lying to yourself! Death is what you really want, so die already you freak of nature!”
  61. 61.
    >Coughing, you barely whisper out.
  62. 62.
    “I can’t do this, I don’t want to.”
  63. 63.
    >’MAKE IT EASY ON YOURSELF, SLIT YOUR FUCKING THROAT!’
  64. 64.
    >Grabbing your own head, you bash it off the ground.
  65. 65.
    >Each hit is agonizing, but the thoughts don’t stop.
  66. 66.
    >’THAT ISN’T ENOUGH CONNIE! DO IT! END YOUR PATHETIC EXCUSE YOU CALL A LIFE!’
  67. 67.
    >Your throat aches, and you desperately try to fight back
  68. 68.
    “No, make it stop!”
  69. 69.
    >’DO IT!’
  70. 70.
     
  71. 71.
    >Finally, you have had enough.
  72. 72.
    >Standing, you grab the bottle and shatter it against the table.
  73. 73.
    “No more thoughts, no pain, no more want, no more worry!”
  74. 74.
    >Holding the broken bottle in your hoof, you shake violently.
  75. 75.
    >Just as you’re about to bring it to your neck, you hesitate for a second.
  76. 76.
    >A small thought pulls its way through.
  77. 77.
    >Don’t do this.
  78. 78.
    >’DON’T BE A COWARD, FINISH THE JOB CONNIE!’
  79. 79.
    >Shaking your head, you focus once more.
  80. 80.
    “Time to go asleep.”
  81. 81.
    >In one movement, you bring the broken bottle across your neck.
  82. 82.
    >Agony fills your senses and you stumble.
  83. 83.
    >Words no longer escape.
  84. 84.
    >Your legs give out from underneath you and you fall to the ground.
  85. 85.
    >All you can hear the record playing.
  86. 86.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOwXwB5wf5w
  87. 87.
    >You’ve always loved this song.
  88. 88.
    >Laying there, you stare at the ceiling.
  89. 89.
    >It gets colder, but the pain finally ends.
  90. 90.
    >The thoughts are gone finally.
  91. 91.
    >It feels like you’re slipping into a warm bath.
  92. 92.
    >So soothing.
  93. 93.
    >Vision is fading fast.
  94. 94.
    >But it’s okay
  95. 95.
    >Free at last.

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