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/emo/ Unstable Symphony, chp 8 (Alternate Ending)

By NHanon
Created: 2020-10-23 15:55:09
Expiry: Never
/emo/connie amoregrimdark

  1. >You pause in front of the mail boxes.
  2. >It wouldn’t hurt to check, right?
  3. >No point, not like anypony wants to write to you
  4. >Heading upstairs to your apartment, you enter the empty home.
  5. “I’m home.”
  6. >Silence greets you.
  7. >Dropping your bags, you pull out the bottle you bought.
  8. >You head into the living room and put on a record.
  9. “Some music will help me relax while I drink.”
  10. >’You do know that drinking will only make it worse.’
  11. “I don’t care.”
  12. >’We’ll see about that.’
  13. >Opening the bottle, the smell bucks you in the face.
  14. “A little strong.”
  15. >You pour yourself a glass and prepare yourself.
  16. “I remember others saying I should down it in one go, so here goes nothing.”
  17. >Quickly mimicking what you’ve seen, the liquor goes down your throat.
  18. >It feels like your throat is on fire, and you start coughing.
  19. >’Bad move Connie.’
  20. >Your body heaves, and eventually the coughing slows down.
  21. “How do ponies drink this?!”
  22. >A small bit of warmth starts to course through you.
  23. >’Look at you, a drinker now. Are you going to whore yourself out too?’
  24. “Shut up.”
  25. >You pour another glass and drink it just like before.
  26. >And like before, you cough again.
  27. >’Keep drinking, maybe you’ll do something right and die.’
  28. “I said shut up.”
  29. >The warmth grows, and you don’t feel as hollow.
  30. “More is the answer, right?”
  31. >Filling another glass, you down it this time without coughing.
  32. >’Going to keep drinking to shut down the truth? You know the orchestra already is judging you.’
  33. “Fuck off.”
  34. >’When they smell the alcohol on your breath, they will get rid of you for sure.’
  35. >You shake your head, you feel a little woozy.
  36. “No, this is just temporary. The doctor will get back to me and everything will be fine.”
  37. >Taking another drink, the hollowness you felt is gone.
  38. >However, you start to feel sad.
  39.  
  40. >’There is no cure for what Eri is going through remember? Since you’re a bigger freak, there isn’t one for you either. You’re fucked Connie.’
  41. >Without warning a sob escapes.
  42. “No.”
  43. >’You’ve already ruined your career, your friendships, and now, your life.’
  44. “I didn’t mean to do it, it was an accident.”
  45. >’They don’t see it that way. Remember how Feather only cared about herself? Remember how she lied to you?’
  46. >You hunch over and more tears escape.
  47. “She’s my friend, she didn’t lie to me.”
  48.  
  49. >’Wow, you actually believe that? What kind of pony would be your friend? You’ve always been awkward, don’t you remember how the other foals ignored you?’
  50. >You try to ignore it and finish the bottle.
  51. “Why isn’t this working? I don’t want to hurt.”
  52. >’You’ve always been alone, you’re a freak and a loser. Do the world a favor and end it all Connie.’
  53. >Sobbing, you cry out.
  54. “No, please stop this!”
  55. >’Stop? No! It’s high time you hear the truth, from yourself no less. No pony loves you and you’re a waste of space.’
  56. >Falling from the stool you curl into a ball crying.
  57. >’You can’t escape this, not anymore. This is what you really want, to finally be free.’
  58. >Mind keeps racing, heart is pounding, and your vision is blurry.
  59. “No! I don’t want that.”
  60. >’Stop lying to yourself! Death is what you really want, so die already you freak of nature!”
  61. >Coughing, you barely whisper out.
  62. “I can’t do this, I don’t want to.”
  63. >’MAKE IT EASY ON YOURSELF, SLIT YOUR FUCKING THROAT!’
  64. >Grabbing your own head, you bash it off the ground.
  65. >Each hit is agonizing, but the thoughts don’t stop.
  66. >’THAT ISN’T ENOUGH CONNIE! DO IT! END YOUR PATHETIC EXCUSE YOU CALL A LIFE!’
  67. >Your throat aches, and you desperately try to fight back
  68. “No, make it stop!”
  69. >’DO IT!’
  70.  
  71. >Finally, you have had enough.
  72. >Standing, you grab the bottle and shatter it against the table.
  73. “No more thoughts, no pain, no more want, no more worry!”
  74. >Holding the broken bottle in your hoof, you shake violently.
  75. >Just as you’re about to bring it to your neck, you hesitate for a second.
  76. >A small thought pulls its way through.
  77. >Don’t do this.
  78. >’DON’T BE A COWARD, FINISH THE JOB CONNIE!’
  79. >Shaking your head, you focus once more.
  80. “Time to go asleep.”
  81. >In one movement, you bring the broken bottle across your neck.
  82. >Agony fills your senses and you stumble.
  83. >Words no longer escape.
  84. >Your legs give out from underneath you and you fall to the ground.
  85. >All you can hear the record playing.
  86. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOwXwB5wf5w
  87. >You’ve always loved this song.
  88. >Laying there, you stare at the ceiling.
  89. >It gets colder, but the pain finally ends.
  90. >The thoughts are gone finally.
  91. >It feels like you’re slipping into a warm bath.
  92. >So soothing.
  93. >Vision is fading fast.
  94. >But it’s okay
  95. >Free at last.

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